Be Back Soon

Just a quick note to say I will be back. Have loads to say but not enough time to say it. Will be back soon

Its a beautiful hot day, herbs are growing like mad. I used some of the chillies in a spinach and potato curry it was so yummy even if I say so myself. I bought some lovely pistachio cakes from the local Indian deli just to finish it off and to have a really beautiful sweet taste in my mouth. They are oh so sickly but gorgeous and you can only have one even though they are so small.

Poor Cupcake is so hot and sitting down on the grass just watching the world go by, well he was busy watching me watching him hehe.

I sat in the sun earlier doing paperwork, so slowly I am getting all the jobs done I have wanted to do for a long time. I got the ironing finished earlier in the week and I started ebaying, hooray I sold one item a Radley handbag, but .......... I wanted more money and I feel very disappointed cos it was a really good buy for someone. I used to work for Radley so accumulated a few of their handbags with those cute little dogs, however I have to add when I got diagnosed with Dilated Cardiomyopathy they didn't exactly rush to get me back to work and behaved despicably towards me. I had to go to see the CEO of the company as they basically made me quit my job, although they say they didn't. Unfortunately I didn't have money to pursue the case to the Tribunal and so in this case I was the loser (well only in monetary terms and also not having a job). I actually used to like working for them but now cant even stand having one of their bags in the house as I don't believe they acted ethically ....... so folks if you ever go sick I hope you aren't working for Radley as they wont want you back(although they say they do)!!!!

Garden delights

Have been just too tired to post yesterday and feel exactly the same today. This is the way dcm gets to you at times. You just have to ride with it and it will go but its really hard sometimes to adjust to it (you feel like you have just run a marathon). For the past week I have felt so good and so have been sorting and cleaning and organising and now I'm paying the penalty for not just evening the days out grrr and more grrr when will I learn!!!

Yesterday I made a beautiful lunch for my mum, and when I say beautiful its just cos it looked nice with all the colours on the table. It was only a salad but it was the queen of salads hehe, eggs, olives, feta cheese, ham you name it, it was there. It just so reminds me of the summer and hopefully with the weather yesterday and today its on its way.

Today I have been sat out in the sun sewing, boring you might think,but hey no it was great, I sat there with the 'dog' now known as Cupcake and took in all the fresh air, smelt the beautiful smells of jasmine, freshly cut grass, and herbs, it was so lovely. I watched the birds, we have a resident robin and we just listened to all the sounds around us. The only thing I wish is that I could have heard the sea, but it would have had a bloody long way to travel to get to me LOL. A beach and the sea would have made my day complete,that's one thing I miss about Spain. Maybe I should have taken my Spanish music out there and just pretended!

Anyway onwards and upwards the sun is still shining, Cupcake is absolutely flaked out, my partner has one to work (sad) and so tonight Ill watch a bit of old Ally McBeal on dvd and do my nails, hmm what colour shall I paint them???

Just a quiet old day today

Just a quiet day today, went for lunch with my Mum and am totally stuffed now. Watched football this morning haven't done that for many years, it was my sons last football game of the season and it was like stepping back in time to when he was small when I used to watch him all the time. Some of the friends I wouldn't have recognised but its suprising how many are from the old days and it was good having a chat.

My friend Kelz daughter is still poorly in hospital but has had all her tubes taken out and hopefully will be moved from ICU fairly soon so am so happy to hear that.

My seeds I planted are growing well and I didn't realise how much pleasure could be gained from just watching them grow. Hopefully it wont be too long before they start producing the herbs, chillies and peppers. I think I may well plant some more soon maybe this time lettuces and spring onions. Am looking forward also to getting some geraniums put in my pots which always reminds me of Spain, then I can put my candles in their places outside and it will again be my beautiful little haven.

Must get back to sorting things out again now so I can keep trying to put it on ebay and make myself some money instead of keeping it doing nothing in the cupboards!

Follow your dreams

Well I didn't post yesterday I got a bit tied up with other more pressing matters. Sadly my friend Kelzs daughter was involved in a serious road accident and is poorly in hospital, my love and hugs and everything else I have goes out to Kelz and her daughter. Hope she improves soon and is soon home where she belongs. Love to you all xxxxx

This leads me on to other thoughts I had last night, what does anything matter in life, we should all try to do what we want to do cos we only have one life to lead. I know money sometimes gives us restraints (well gives us a lot of restraints) but all in all I think sometimes our lives have to be restructured slightly. The same goes to weight and also as to what clothes we wear. What does it matter how heavy or thin we are, as long as we are happy with the way we look. Obviously some things spell out health issues which we must take into account but all in all if we are happy with out lives then let it be. We don't need to conform to the air brushed images, or wear the up to date clothes, unless this is of course what we want! We don't need all the material things in life either. I moved to Spain several years ago with just three huge suitcases and I honestly had everything I needed as regards to personal things except I did miss all my books. My flat was fully furnished, although sparse, and I only had to buy some extra bed linen, a microwave and some plants which I love. I loved it there more than I do here and yet I had virtually nothing. I did miss my family as just my partner and I went alone and I also I would have liked a dog there. I had three cats in the UK which I left with my mother and when I returned she did not want me to have them back so hence why I bought the 'dog' hehe. I could walk to the shops, plentiful with fresh fruit and veg, not all in conforming to EU rules on size. I shopped in the markets, drunk coffee at the street cafes, walked to beach and the mountains and had a few alcoholic beverages at the local bar! Food was something to be enjoyed and hours were spent just eating, chatting and drinking (and no not getting drunk), I even learnt Spanish and didn't have a car. Transport was brilliant and the train took you to the major nearby city in just 20 mins and also a quick trip to Gibraltar was easy so I could stock up on just the few things of English stuff that I liked at Safeway there. I cant really believe I came back, but things were meant for a reason I truly believe that and not long after I returned I was diagnosed with the heart condition I have. So all in all today's motto is just do what you believe to be right for you and try to follow your dreams wherever possible cos you just don't know what is around the corner!

Mission Impossible Maybe

Today I was on a mission, something exciting you might think, maybe something undercover or glamorous but no I needed to finish my ironing, omg it was such a huge pile. It comes to something when you have to give yourself something as exciting as ironing for a mission!!! My pile was getting so big I had even forgotten about some of it. Shows how much we do NOT need in life. Now its started me on another mission, hidden in my wardrobe are clothes and shoes I have never worn so its all going on ebay, I'm going to be ruthless ......... well as ruthless as I can be! Keep your fingers crossed it makes me money. Once I have done mine I'm starting on all my partners clothes and shoes still with tags on or in boxes and I'm going to keep the money hehehehe. I have got so much crap that I don't need. I have clothes and shoes for every occasion and I never go anywhere different to wear it and by the time I do I will want to buy something new so here's to a new start or is this just another one of my schemes that will bite the dust soon mmmmmm.

Pics of todays dog walk but you have to look sideways LOL

one of the seven fields in the conservation area

the dog looking proud
the enclosed garden

the stream that runs all the way through the fields

One of those "anxious type" days

What can I say having a head whizzing around day today. Mind keeps whirring away over nothing. Didn't even want to take the 'dog' out today but I did, legs went to jelly, body tensed up and head felt so spaced out......... am having one of my more than normal anxious days grrr. It started 13 years ago when my marriage came to a very horrible conclusion and Ive never been right since hehe. I often make a joke of it but its been a real struggle at times, once upon a time I couldn't even go to the shops or eat properly. I never became housebound but life took on a different meaning, everything had to be planned meticulously and I had to be in control of everything. I had to write endless lists telling myself what jobs to do and be super duper organised and trying to be "Mrs Perfect". I know now that there is no such thing though I do still try and have perhaps an unhealthy obsession with cleaning! Looking back now I can understand how it all happened, my relationship had taken a bit of a turn for the worse and I was subject to mental and physical abuse, some awful things happened which I have just written about and deleted, maybe one day I will be able to write about it! But hey its not all doom and gloom we all got over it, sons have a good relationship with their Dad and I built a new life (we had to run away I'll put that much), have a wonderful partner and 2 well adjusted sons (well I hope they r hehe) and a very odd dog oh and a stupid heart condition !!!

I need an Alter Ego

Grrr still got the headache and don't exactly feel at my best!! Phone arrived yippee, have put it on charge so hope this one works properly, we will see. Have totally tons of stuff to do today pay bills, ironing omg piles of it and its the middle pf the afternoon already. Normal jobs done, dinner made in advance (no boring pics of it today hehe) so really should be doing all the stuff that's urgent not sitting on here typing out my blog. Still this is more fun, don't really want to see how much money I don't have! I need to learn a bit more about this blogging lark cos just don't understand a lot of it, I want to make site pretty and with plenty of links but I seem to be having major brain dead moments and cant get to grips with it. Help me someone please LOL. Should also really be trying to organise my business, I need to do some advertising and stuff but I seem to have gone off the boil, how in the heck will I ever make any money???? Mind you today I have been offered a job, not in the makeup business but at my local hospital, its only a administrative/secretarial bank job and I can work as and when I like, when of course they have the vacancies, sounds pretty good but apparently its going to take 6-8 weeks before I can start. So ....... need to start ebaying and stuff and kicking my own ass to get my business into gear really. Wish I had my creative head on today and I could at least design the business cards, I was totally crap designing my website and finally gave that up as a bad job, so at the moment I have the domain name but nowhere to put it, have had all the ideas in my head but that's where they seem to stay just going round in circles. Boy don't I get dizzy LOL!! Anyway enoughs enough today cos I cant think what else wonderous has happened in my life since yesterday, mmmm might just start having to make up an alter ego or something maybe Rouge Noir Lady of the Night mmmm, got the giggles now even thinking of it.

A Mind Hopping Day

What can I say, its yet another day. Hmm what I have I done so far, well have tided up and cleaned a bit (am a bit obsessive about keeping things sparkly), taken the 'dog' out for a walk, have to admit he was pretty good today. He attempted to fly at the fence with the 2 yappy dogs but I managed to stop him this time and 'dog' is now doing his favourite pastime having a snooze in his big comfy basket.

Am very cross with Vodafone at the moment, they seem to be incapable of getting anything right with my phone, wrong one got delivered last week, then new one came on which the camera didn't work, it cant be exchanged til tomorrow and then I received a text today at 8.20am saying it would be collected today between the hours of 8.30am - 6pm. Do Vodafone think we have no life!!! Anyway I phoned them up to say 'what the heck' and I was told to ignore the text it was just the warehouse what if I had decided not to phone and take a day off work or something!!!!!!!! Is there nothing that can be done to stop this inefficiency. Whats happened to the world? Is this the new technology gone haywire, I thought it was supposed to improve our quality of life not take it away and make us make endless phone calls to call centres where we get pushed from pillar to post with no one really listening. No wonder I have another headache today, I suppose I will have to put another one of those blue sticky strips on my head yet again, hate taking paracetamol cos I take enough meds as it is.! This leads me on to something else I have a hopping mind today cant stop it its out of control hehe. I had a conversation today with a wonderful friend I met through The Cardiomyopathy Association and she said that she was giving up her motorbike cos she felt she was getting to old to be a bikerbabe anymore "Munchkin you are NOT too old so there!! " Also am sending hugs and kisses to another friend who is having her battery replaced in her bivent pacemaker today "bionic woman hurry up and get back cos I miss chatting to you on msn!" Now to mind hop onto something else maybe hmm .......

Right then am back after a brief interlude of making a chilli, I would like to have put the receipe underneath pretending I was some sort of earth mother but ........ I used a packet mix ...... omg just had to get up and go to the cooker hob I have burnt the rice yet again, I seem to get carried away and forget exactly what I am doing, this is really beginning to get on my nerves as I do this all the time, why cant the mind stop hopping and just remember the task in hand grrrr. Anyway chilli looks nice and rice is only stuck on the bottom so its not totally irretrievable.

The Demon Dog

Another day is upon us, as I am sitting here all typing I have doors open and can smell the beautiful smell of newly cut grass.... it makes me think hooray our sort of nice weather is truly on its way. How long will it last though that's another story!! Well boring as it is have just been out for a walk with the 'dog' boy did he let me down big time.His behaviour can be appalling outside at times and other times he can be an angel, well today it was appalling. For some reason as we walk away from our house up the road he is absolutely fine then as we reach the main road his alter ego takes over and the placid Labrador becomes a devil dog. He pulls, he growls, hes on high alert all the time, paper bags, rubbish bins, toys, people, other dogs they all become the enemy and his motto seems to be "I'm going to get them before they get me!" Today was normal run the gauntlet except for one thing, on returning home we have to pass various houses where either dogs or cats live (bearing in mind he can stay with my mums cats within about 2" and be quite happy) anyway before I go on and on and on hehe there are 2 little yappy dogs that never seem to go out but constantly stay in a garden behind a 6' fence and there is a few holes in this fence well the 'dog' pulled so hard his lead came out of my hand, he ran across a road and began attacking the 6'fence and low and behold the 2 yappy dogs were behind it snarling and yapping. The 'dog' was out of control by now, growling and attacking the fence and it took all my strength to intervene and get the 6st monster away!! What if a car or motorbike had been coming when said 'dog' made a run for the fence, 'dog' would have been killed or injured, or even the driver could have suffered the same fate . What can I do???? AM at my wits end. Two minutes later the 'dog' is back to his angelic self strutting down the road, tail wagging with not a care in the world and is now home snoozing as usual in his basket.

Had a bit of a rest from blogging !

Well couldn't continue with blogging got so tied up with exams and stuff and to be honest I lost all inclination to do anything. I didn't think it would take me this long however til I got back any momentum to do anything, it just seemed liked a few days ........... Anyway passed exams, am now legally a makeup artist although haven't don't anything about it yet. Such a lot to set up and boy am I lazy and have no money which is a bit of a concern when u r trying to set up a business. Anyway so far have just got the tools of the trade, an imaginative mind, have sort of set up insurance, well got the proposal through although so far I haven't paid any money and that's about it. I need a damn good kick up the ass I tell u. Other than that hmm what has been happening, dog is still my baby, ticker is still dicky, have been to see Joseph starring Lee Mead at the Adelphi, oh and have started growing stuff. So far its chillies x 2 sorts, peppers x 2 sorts, coriander, basil and chives. I might venture onto different thins soon but am very excited that some of my seeds are growing!!

My first day as a blogger hehe

Well today I finally decided to do it to write a blog about Life at my Place. What place u might think it is an interesting place well hell no it isn't hehe. Have so much to do exams to prepare for yet here I am sitting at the net, how am I ever going to pass? Just two weeks left til final exam and then assessment and then whey hey hopefully makeup artistry here I come, albeit a makeup artist with a dikky ticker. More about that later! Right then that's it I'm off I'm going to try and make an effort to do something, dog is snoozing in his basket with a full belly what a life mmmm.